In the consciousness of the truth he has perceived man now sees everywhere only the awfulness or the absurdity of existence and loathing seizes him.
In all of our society but especially in Hollywood there is an obsession with perfection that can lead to self-loathing and neurosis and all that kind of stuff.
I feel an intense intimacy with those who have this loathing interest in me. Further than this I know what they mean I sympathize with them I understand them. There should be a name (as poetic as love) for this relationship between loather and loathed it is of the closest and more full of passion than incest.
It is hard I submit to loathe bloodshed including war more than I do but it is still harder to exceed my loathing of the very nature of totalitarian states in which massacre is only an administrative detail.
My loathings are simple: stupidity oppression crime cruelty soft music.
Music is so therapeutic for me that if I can't get it out I start feeling bad about myself - a lot of self-loathing.
A lot of the problems I had with fame I was bringing on myself. A lot of self-loathing a lot of woe-is-me. Now I'm learning to see the positive side of things instead of like 'I can't go to Kmart. I can't take my kids to the haunted house.'
People don't know where to place me. Terry Gilliam used me as a quirky cop in 'Twelve Monkeys' and then he hired me again to be an effeminate hotel clerk in 'Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas'. Another time I was shooting this indie film 'The Souler Opposite' and six days a week I'm playing this big puppy dog then I come to the 'NYPD Blue' set and become this scumbag.
Do not look upon this world with fear and loathing. Bravely face whatever the gods offer.
Art saved me it got me through my depression and self-loathing back to a place of innocence.